-I'm oh so happy to be leaving the place i work....
1. I hate how you manage the store. I swear that you favor people, and really it shows. You stick me in that damn hole then complain about how i do what i do. Well if you don't fucking like it then take me out of the damn thing. You might think that i cant hear you talk about me while im working and so are you...but really i can. So shut the fuck up. it isn't right for you to be doing that. Especially when im only 5 feet away. I'm happy that tonight was the last night that i would have to be with you while your managing.
2. You need to listen to your damn head set. The next time that i tell you that the kids meal has water and not a coke 3 times and yet you still make the coke then get mad at me when you find out that your wrong i will kick the fuck out of you.
3. You think your the shit...but really your not.
4. I'm sorry that i piss you off.
5. I think that i will only miss a few people in the end.

- Even though i haven't told you that i love you i think that secretly you know that i do. And that i will always love you. When i do stupid things or get mad at you, you should know that i never do them on purpose. I never mean to hurt you or anything. I just need my space, and want to be able to explore and learn new things. And this is why i don't want a relationship. Not just with you...but with anyone. I'm scared to give things a try again, because i don't want things to happen like they did before. If i was absolutely positive that things would be all fine and dandy then i would start things again...but i don't know if they will be. Hence why im scared. I will always care about you. No matter what.

- I'm going back to Kettering on friday. I don't know really how i feel about that yet. Excited but then at the same time not, and a little bit scared.
1. I'm excited to see everyone, and be living on my own again. I'm excited to be able to do whatever i want, and whenever i want.
2. I'm not excited for the school part, or having to worry about paying for school or my books.
3. I'm scared that im going to loose the people that i lost last time i was up at school again. The people that i re-built friendships with.

-I think that im not going to try to get a job during school. It would just be so much better if i didn't have to worry about when i work. But then again i need the money.

Things to do before friday:
1. Do laundry
2. Pack
3. Clean room/closet/basement
4. Get gas and pack car, and clean car...inside and outside
5. Finish buying the last minute needs for school.
6. Finish Sam's chalk bag.

I truly am excited for tomorrow. Well not the work part, but the ASA Christmas party part. I'm taking my dads spaghetti, i hope i don't burn or ruin it. because then that would just be horrible. I'm excited to see everyone that i haven't seen in uber long.

As lame as it sounds getting that "Merry Christmas Kelsey, i hope your doing amazing" text made me happy. It made me realize that maybe there will be change. But still i will not get my hopes up that it will happen. Because no one really knows what you will do. I realized that i post about you kinda a lot, and that i should probably stop. So for now this is the last thing that i will say about you. Probably until i have to face you again in 2 weeks.

New Years is almost here, im kinda pump for that too. Well ill be even more pump if my mom lets me go out. If not, then fuck, i guess ill just be sitting in my basement all alone like a loser. A week after new years im moving back to Kettering. That is kinda almost as exciting as New Years to me. Im sick of living in this house with my parents. Next work term if i don't have a co-op ill either be taking classes at school, or living in an apartment with 6 other lovely people. Living with 6 other people in an apartment should be interesting...but hell the rent would be cheap as hell.

I'm leaving soon and i hope that things don't go back to what they where last term. Really i don't. I'm be up at school, and what happens up there happens. I'm there to learn about myself, and experience new things. So please don't get made at me when things don't happen as you want them to. I'm not saying that they will, but im just saying that if they don't go as planned to not get pissed at me. This is the one thing that im scared about for when i go back to school. That the same thing will happen this term as last term.